3 AM

(now playing: Fletch - Tiga Pagi)

There's something different about consistently doing something. What I'm feeling now is the absence of fatigue and complaints towards doing what we believe is right, what we believe is good, and what aligns with the purpose of our lives.

This morning, I'm still at the kopi merah putih, doing my usual routine every day. Consistently doing it and prioritizing it over other activities. It's been a whole day without sleep. But there's something strange right now when I, who should be sleeping, can't seem to close my eyes and keep thinking about something exciting that I need to do and express. Maybe this is what they call passion from the concept of ikigai, or maybe this is just a stage of adulthood as I'm now 23. I'm really enjoying it.

Fletch's song titled Tiga Pagi perfectly describes how I feel right now. The meaning of the song about 3 AM, which is related to the spiritual aspect in Islam called tahajud prayer. Maybe this is the same thing I'm feeling about brain regeneration in one night when the whole world is silent. Sometimes we reconsider life and its purpose.