Ephemeral Strings

Beneath the fleeting twilight skies,

A youthful heart clings to whispers, lies.

Her smile, a beacon of gilded grace,

Yet logic fades in her fleeting embrace.

Threads of hope, so delicately spun,

Tethered to shadows that turn and run.

Promises woven in the tapestry of air,

Fraying with time, vanishing unaware.

The world once narrowed to a single gaze,

Lost in the haze of infatuation’s maze.

But love, they say, should nourish the soul,

Not leave it yearning to feel whole.

In fragile moments, truths softly bloom,

That joy’s a garden we each must groom.

No need to anchor where storms reside,

For love will flow with the changing tide.

Step by step, the weight unwinds,

Leaving space for lighter minds.

And someday soon, when stars align,

The truest heart will intertwine.

So let go, let live, let healing unfold,

A brighter love awaits ... untamed, bold.

-AAA

Have I Really Done What I Want?

Wake up every morning to the smell of freshly brewed coffee, a ritual that’s become as natural as breathing. My business, Kopi Merah Putih, is thriving multiple locations, a loyal customer base, and a vision that’s resonating with so many. On paper, I’ve got it all: on progress, stability, and a sense of purpose. But here’s the thing; I can’t shake the feeling that something’s missing. That quiet voice inside keeps asking: Is this really what I want? Have I been chasing goals just to check them off, or is there something deeper that I’m still searching for?

Sure, I’ve nailed the basics: food, clothes, a roof over my head. But once you've got all that, what’s next? Does life get boring once you’ve reached your goals? Or is it that we’re always chasing something because, deep down, we're never fully "done" searching?

Now, as I’m gearing up for grad school at the University of Indonesia to study Environmental Science, I’m hoping it’ll open new doors. Not just in terms of understanding the world around me, but maybe understanding myself better, too. Maybe through this journey, I’ll uncover deeper meaning than just business success or material gains.

I’m realizing that the daily grind isn’t about racing to the finish line. It’s about learning to enjoy every step along the way. Maybe the real win isn’t in “getting there,” but in the fact that I’m always growing, always evolving. The journey is the point.

And who knows, life stays interesting because we never really know what’s coming next. Every day is another shot to learn, grow, and find deeper meaning in what we do. So, have I found what I’m looking for yet? Probably not. But that’s kinda the beauty of it through the search, I keep discovering new things that make life worth it.

So for now, I’m rolling with it. Maybe that’s what makes life exciting: the never-ending quest to figure it all out.

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Why

(now playing: pamungkas - to the bone)

Talking about life's journey milestones is always fascinating. Every era, every stage, and the moments that come with them bring lessons learned along the way.

This time, my journey led me to step away from the coffee business in Depok. We started with a long-term plan that, allhamdulillah, we hit (and even exceeded) our targets.

Three months have flown by, and it’s always the same, like in Bandung. I start them up, set up the business systems, and after about three months, it's time to move on and chase the next milestone.

I still want to dive into the same kind of business and keep expanding. This time, I need a stepping stone to build a strong brand, and it definitely needs to be in a big city. Central Jakarta, is my target to continue the coffee business and, at the same time, further my studies at the University of Indonesia's School of Environmental Sciences.

June will be my last active month with the Depok coffee operations. In October, I’ll be registering for the third wave of the SIMAK UI entrance exam. I have a four-month gap to prep for everything. It's a solid amount of time.

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Sometimes, these journeys feel like a breath being drawn during the transition of quarterly moments. Looking back, everything I’ve been through and planned has passed just like that, with no turning back.

"Why?" always stands as the primary question and statement in these journeys, compared to "How?" or "What?". I always want to be someone with dreams and principles. Not just someone who knows how to do things practically and instantly. But maybe that’s also what's tough to explain to people with different principles.

I’m always grateful and never forget my family, who put up with my stubbornness every day and accept my life choices. I’m super thankful for that.

Shout out! to the café near Kopi Merah Putih Depok called Le Túsa. It's always a cozy spot to write, read books, and be productive in this new chapter of life.